Hump Day - That just sounds so wrong!

It is Wednesday! Why do people call it hump day? Ok so I know it is the middle of the week and it is all downhill from there but still... it just sound funny to say "Hump Day". Lol I wonder if alot of people who have "a night" use Wednesday as the night because the name lends so well to it. Oh well... guess I don't have "a night" so I don't have to worry about it!

Everyone should be so proud of me! Last night I went out to dinner with Tim and we tried some place new. He wanted to go to Bonefish Grill (http://www.bonefishgrill.com/) so away we went. Let me explain that I don't do seafood. But last night I tried lots of different things!

First we had the "Bang Bang Shrimp" which has a spicy cream sauce on it. I honestly felt like it tasted like it was covered in nacho cheese! It was not too bad and I continued to eat it of my own volition - the texture was different.

Then I ordered the Lily’s Chicken which is fire-roasted chicken topped with creamy Chèvre Goat cheese, sautéed spinach, artichoke hearts and a lemon basil sauce. Ok so the first bite took me back to my childhood... very odd sensation. It was the goat cheese... I went back to this dairy/cheese farm that my family visited on vacation in Holland (I think). I could taste the cheese smell the area we were in and almost picture it. I honestly could only eat a few more bites of the cheese just because it was weird going back with every bite. Lol and it was served with veggies and the yellow squash was taking me back to my great grandma's in the summer... flashback are a little to out there for me.

Tim ordered some special for the night that had oh so yummy garlic mashed potatoes. It also had Mahi Mahi - different tasting could tell it was fish but not so bad that I refused to eat another bite. It was kinda crusted and was decent as fish goes. The plate also had scallops - now I still have no clue what scallops are - and I was told oh you have to taste this. It has a velvety texture that just melts in your mouth. Um... ok while I like the grilled taste of it I am not sure where he gets the velvety texture that melts in your mouth thing... it was kinda chewy to me.

But I tried it all and would try it again... don't ever think I could get an entire seafood dinner. That would just be too much for me. But tasting a few things off of others plates may be possible.

TGIF

That’s right folks it is Friday! And I am so ready for the weekend! No plans worth sharing this weekend but who cares? It will be the weekend… and I can (and I say this jokingly) sit around butt-naked all weekend if I want to just because I can. Ok so the chances of me doing that are slim to none… when you share a small room with two 70+ pound dogs sitting around butt-naked is not only disturbing but it is a great way to get scratch marks everywhere. Salsa (my short bus puppy) has a tendency to use Mommy as a “you stand there and I will stretch” post… which leaves enough marks with clothes on, don’t want to not have them on.

I will also be working on some graduation party invitations… I am making little mortar boards with tassels and everything! I am excited! The proto-type turned out cute… can’t wait to make um 63 of them. Gives me an excuse to go shopping; I ran out of adhesive working on a scrapbook for the Provost of my university that is leaving two nights ago. Oh and I will be working on favors for the party too…. Little triangle things that will have m&m’s in them. I may get them to the point where they are half done and all I need to do is fill them up closer to the party and seal them up. That way the m&m’s don’t get icky.

Ok well… I guess that is all I really have to say. Wait my lucky dog best friend is in Orlando right now! The stinker calls me and says oh it is 89 degrees and I am sun burnt but I’m loving it. All I can say is oh it’s 48 degrees and I am freezing in a skirt but I’m jealous of you. Lol he better bring me back something! Actually I asked today if he was (jokingly) and said you know even the hotel shower cap would make me smile. He laughed and said of course he was bringing me back something and already has it… so now I just wonder what he got me. Honestly I was just joking because anytime I go out of town, even to middle of nowhere CO, he asks what I am getting him. But he actually got me something! I hardly ever get surprises/gifts and so this is exciting. Is it sad that I would be happy with seriously the freebies from the hotel? You know the little things of lotion are pretty nice to throw in the car… ok yes that is sad don’t answer that!

Oh – guess I have more to jabber on about only because it is Friday afternoon and I can’t wait for 5. Had to call my credit card company and they asked if they could increase my card limit… hmmm well gee you know I think I am going to decline. Yeah right! Even the extra $300 on there will be nice since I only have the one card right now. Heck in an emergency $300 on the card may save my life. So that may be an exaggeration, but think of it this way if I am driving in the desert and my car breaks down in the middle of nowhere and I am lucky enough to find cell phone reception before the vultures circle around me and I have a mental breakdown from them stalking me, I might need that extra $300 to pay the tow-truck guy to take my Go-Kart back to civilization on top of what it takes to fix the car. Shh! Don’t point out the fact that I live no where near a desert nor do I ever plan to travel anywhere in the desert in my Go-Kart; that is not the point in this story! You are supposed to focus on the fact that the extra $300 will save me from vultures and get my car back to be fixed… focus--- focus--- focus. There you go you see the whole vulture free scenario now, good for you!

Three weeks of missed time - five major things

Wow! A lot has happened since I put a real post on here… where to start? Ok I think there are about five major things that have happened in the last three weeks or so. I will try to post pictures of those that I have them for soon. Hope you like the huge re-cap on everything… be prepared it is a lot! Sorry!

Story #1: I got to see how folks are treated when they get to go to a psych evaluation center and a hospital. Yup that’s right! Because of some comments I posted on my blog I was required to go get a mental checkup and not allowed to come back to work until I got a release. So I got a week off before the doctor could meet with me for a follow up appointment. But at the hospital I got escorted from the emergency room section to the evaluation center by an armed guard and got to go behind oh three sets of locked doors. There I got to be patted down, had to shake out my bra and take off my shoes/socks. I also found out when I left that they had gone through everything in my bag and purse and dumped it all out and separated it all into individual baggies. After the pat down – which I assume was necessary to protect both them and myself if I was really crazy – I got put into a locked room until a nurse could come in and take a preliminary case history. Then after about 15-20 minutes I got to go to another locked room to talk with the psychiatrist. This was the really make me feel crazy part because the session was held via teleconference. Yup if you don’t feel crazy talking to a person on the tv and having them talk back kinda makes you question your sanity. I also found out that I remember a lot more of my abonormal psych class then I thought I did. Some of his questions I so badly wanted to say… no I don’t have PTS Syndrome, no I don’t have Bi-polar Disorder. After I would answer his questions he would say ok well there we were looking for this disorder and you know each time I actually knew what he was looking for! Go me! He concluded that while I was depressed I was not really suicidal so I got to go home after about four hours. So that is good right? The only bad thing that came out of this whole situation is now some of the gals at work --- well to be quite honest are acting like I am a leper or something. Ah anytime I try to make conversation they end it quickly and pretty much have stopped talking to me. I am not sure if it is because they think I am mad at them for sending me away (which I am not) or if they have just never really been comfortable around me and so this was a perfect way for them to start distancing themselves from me. Oh well… while it make work interesting when people whisper and/or ignore you I guess it is just the way it is. I am ok with this whole situation and they will just have to get used to it I guess.

Story #2: I left Tyler!!!!!! And I can’t tell you how happy I am… seriously I have been having an episode of major depression for the last well honestly year (and no I did not get help until recently – my bad I know) because of how upset and unhappy I was in my marriage. And since I have told him I just feel this huge weight lifted off of my chest. Most everything got moved out of the house a week ago. Tyler has stopped calling over 10 times a day to question why. He does not understand why I left… even when I told him all the reasons why, they are not good enough. Somehow he thinks three days (he took off when story #1 happened) of him doing everything I want would fix over three years of him basically making me feel like shit. I have refrained from telling him “Have you ever heard the expression too little too late?” Anyways I moved in with Dad. Which in all honestly is a little odd; I have not lived with him in about 11 years. I got my first piece of mail there on Friday and it was like “Oh crap… I really live here now!” The dogs and I have taken over the back half of the house but at least I am trying to keep things neat back there… lol don’t feel bad because my little brother and step-brother have taken over the front half of the house and it is well much like you would expect from a 21 & 20 (respectively) year old guys. The girls are doing well there. Salsa barks when the guys come home at two-three in the morning… and for some reason she really does not like my step-brother and barks at him when he walks around the house. But they are getting to spend lots of time outside (Tyler had five-minute limits) and are loving every minute of it! He has a chain link fence and so they can be peeping toms without having to choose if they want to smell the interesting things through a knothole or see them.

Story #3: I got some tattoos! You know have been a chicken-shit and never been brave enough to get them. I was afraid it would hurt really bad and I would have like a permanent freckle because I would just let them do a little bit and be like nope… no more! Plus I got them on the inside of my wrist. Everyone I talked to that had tattoos said that was the worst spot to get them because it hurts really bad due to the fact there is not a lot of skin/muscle/fat there to cushion the needle. I am really proud… first off with both wrist I only winced a total of one time. Tim said something like she is tryin to be hard but honestly it did not hurt as bad as I had anticipated! This could be a bad thing because now I really want to get more done! Thinking I could get some along my sides… but I will have to think some more on it. I need to find my little photo card uploader thing so I can show everyone pictures of them.

Story #4: I went to a SWARM in Tulsa, OK. Ok for those of you who think I am crazy because I used the word swarm and have no clue what it means here is your answer: I own a personal diecut machine called the Cricut. There is a message board community that is a playground for thousands of Cricut owners and sometimes we get together at events called swarms (a group of crickets are called swarms – get it) to scrapbook, chat and play for a couple of days. Well I go invited to drive down to Tulsa, OK and join the lovely ladies of that area for a crop. I have to tell you these ladies are some of the most fun and sweetest people you will ever meet! I have only met a handful of them in person about a year ago and still I got hugs and big hellos from quite a few. It was so much fun and I can’t wait until the next one in May! I kinda knew it would be the last time I would really get to crop for a while since all of my stuff was getting boxed up and put into storage so it forced me to focus (a little at least) and work on stuff. I got 58 cards done (omg I have never been so productive at a crop) a couple of altered items – notebooks & card boxes and a few make-n-takes – bookmarks, card, and a really cute favor box which I used the design for Easter gifts. Only one 18-gallon tote of supplies went with me – oh and a carry bag but I had enough things for everyone to laugh about me moving into the school cafeteria. I looked like I had a little fort with all of my items on my table. (Is it sad that I have at least 10 more totes full of scrapbooking stuff?) Oh wait --- look I got bright green glasses too! If you look to the left of me on the window ledge you can see my growing stack of cards!

Story #5: My friend of oh geese 14(?) years moved in with my best friend. I suggested it when she needed a place to live but honestly it is a little odd. Lol, I don’t know when I go over there who I am supposed to be hanging out with! Plus she is a baker – so sad that my guys won’t need my baking anymore! Now I have no one to eat my cookies! Plus it is odd for me because well ok honestly my best friend has been kinda distant from me because of my whole divorce thing – he just does not know how to handle it – and now he is kinda doing all the things with her he used to do with me. Is it sad that the one time she spent the night in the garage while he worked on his car I got jealous? (Ok I know that is sad) And like last night they were talking a lot and she kept coming downstairs to chat… I dunno it is odd for me. I am happy she moved in there because the guys are great and honestly it is a safe place to be with people to help her take her mind off things. But still they now have these little inside jokes and little games they play (like stealing the cookie dough – sounds so stupid when I write it down) and I just am kinda sad. I am hoping though once I get my life straightened out things will get better between me and the best friend.

Ok so this is just a post to say that things are fine

Things are going to be just fine. Once I can find good things to post about I will continue to post blogs. Until then... thanks for reading.

Things are going to hit rock bottom before things get happy

Ok so I just want to warn that there is a 99.99% chance that all the upcoming posts will not be happy posts. I am super depressed and so things in my life are depressing. I have been crying non-stop and things just seem to be getting worse.

The relationship in my life that means the most to me had to change and I just don't know how much more change I can take. It is like a wall is up and I can't do anything to fix it. I know it is for the best but I just am having a really hard time coping with this change and so little things are setting me off.

I have been fighting urges to do stupid-ass things to hurt myself. Honestly the other day a train was coming up on the track and I had to slam down the brakes in order to prevent myself from slamming it onto the gas. I mean I was holding it down so hard that my left leg was shaking and I had to hold it there until it had passed. More and more doing stupid things come into my mind and they are getting harder to ignore.

So this weekend my goal is to get two tattoos. One on each wrist. Left wrist = It will be ok. Right wrist = Let it be. I have been having to chant it will be ok to myself over and over and that is all I hear from my best friend. I don't know... I want to believe it will be ok and so maybe having it in a spot where I will see it every day (and in a spot to remind me not to do stupid things) I can start to focus on how ok it really will be. Plus the quote was only $60 for both it seems to be a great sign that I should do it!

Oh and I went to the Doctors and I have a huge Vitamin D deficiency... so for the next few months I get to take 50,000 (yes that is right) units of Vitamin D three days for one week, once a week for four weeks and once every two weeks for eight weeks. Not sure how I will be able to remember to take it but I have to. They say that a vitamin d deficiency can cause pain and sleeplessness so I am really hoping that maybe there would be enough to get me to sleep after the first week.

Ok so this is really just a post to tell ya'll that I would not want to really force anyone to read the sad and depressing things in my life and you just want to make sure that if you read my blog for a while that you take nothing to heart and take offence please.

Bound and detirmined to have a happy post... damn it!

Ok so I realize that several of the last posts are not happy! And anyone who knows me understands that I have to at least pretend to be happy every once in a while! So happy post.... go! No go.... now! Oh crud I have to actually write it myself? Darn it! Let us start at the beginning a very good place to start (Stupid Sound of Music) I am in a marginal amount of pain. And yes this is good news! This means that I can ignore the pain and not have to rely on pain killers. So very happy news because I hate taking pain killers! Even better news since I hate feeling like I can't function - which is a typical occurrence when I am on them.

I have so many ideas for projects running in my head! I can't wait to get started.... I will have to take pictures of the in-between stages of the projects. I really hope they turn out as well as I think they look in my mind!

Ok well that was a short post! Sorry I guess I don't have a lot to write and my lunch hour is over... stay tuned for another episode of "The boring life according to Vic!"

I have been tagged (and I did not even know it - geeze)

I've been tagged by A Chick Named Chuck!

The Rules:
- Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
- Share one of the following:
-- Share 5 random and/or weird facts about yourself on your blog.
-- Share the 5 top places on your “want to see or want to see again” list.
-- Share 5 things you never pictured being in your future when your were (your age now) years old.
- Tag a minimum of 5, maximum of 10 random people at the end of your post and include links to their blogs.
-- Let each person know that they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
-- The tagees have a choice of which they want to do.

Five random/weird facts:
1. I have trichotillomania. A mental disorder that causes people to compulsively pull their hair out. I try to confine it to places that people won't see underarms, legs and elsewhere. But I have been trying really hard to quit doing it on my legs because I have lots of scars from it. So much so that I wear jeans in the summer to be more comfortable around others. It is also one reason I really do not enjoy going swimming because the elsewhere is where I pull from most and so me and bathing suits do not look good together. I spend at least half an hour a day doing this... I can even be talking out loud telling myself to stop and I still go at it. I have never admitted/told that to anyone before now so no laughing please. I know that Tyler knows about the plucking (he obviously sees the scars) but I don't think he knows how obbsesive-compulsive I am about it.
2. I love burnt cookies!
3. When I am really pissed off and around other people I bite my finger nails. It's the only time I do that.
4. In the past two days I have only slept 5.5 hours!
5. In High School I went from 200 pounds to 120 pounds in less than a year. The one bag of cheez-its and a diet coke as your entire day's food content is not a reccomended diet!

I don't have any other friends who do a blog so I won't tag anyone. But if you read this and tag yourself let me know!

Ok either two hours of sleep really suites me well or the new meds have me bouncing of the wall!

I only got like two hours of sleep last night but I have been like super hyper today. I don't know if it is that you are so tired your wacky type of thing or if it is the new meds that are making me go wacky. Either way I guess I feel wacky! I fell asleep around two and woke up at four. I let the dogs out of the kitchen and they were down the stairs and on the couch in their spots before I had hit the middle of the stairs. Well I laid down with them... each of us got a couch cusion. Ok so I laid there for about thrity minutes before I decided that there was no way I was going to be able to fall asleep. So I got up and flipped on the lights... let me tell you Penny has never given me such an evil go-to-hell look as she did when those lights went on! Anyways I grabbed my ipod turned it up loud and started making a card. Viola! A pretty card inside and out - wait the outside then the inside! This morning I was thinking this is either going to be an amazing card or a the worse card I have ever made. I mean come on! It was four in the morning with two hours of sleep. Well I have gotten several opinions today and I think they all were more towards the thats really good than oh hmmm well uh-huh. So I think thats good right? Here are the pictures of it... the card is 3-D with lots of deminsion and every point of the star is a sperate folded piece of paper.

I am really in this paper folding mood so I am working on some embelishment / elements for a swap with my friends online so I will be posting more creations that are in bright pinks, yellows and greens. Better watch out I will soon be able to lay a flat piece of paper in my hand and with out looking use only one hand to fold it into a life size replica of the Statue of Liberty! Oh wait I think that may be the wacky talking. But I bet I can sure try!

The joy of having a disease that no one believes!

For the past ten years I have had a chronic pain problem. How did it all start? Well I am super smooth, talented, graceful whichever word you wish to use and in my sophomore year in high school I managed to fall down a set of bleachers --- and this is the best part --- this was at a homecoming football game and everyone was there. Well when I fell I landed on my back and slammed the lower back onto the metal bleachers. So I went to the doctor and got lots of x-rays only to find out that my lower vertebra are opened slightly (much like people with spina bifida but not as severe) so when I hit my back basically I hit the nerve column directly. The doctors could not figure out why I was in so much pain all the time since there were no fractures of the spine. Well eventually (after seriously 100's of x-rays, tons of different blood work, bone scans, cat scans and MRIs) they diagnosed me with Fibromyasia - kinda. Ok so how do you kinda diagnose something? Easy enough actually! Fibromyasia can be triggered by traumatic events to your body and it is kinda the catch all disease that if they can't figure out what is wrong you get labeled with it. Well ten-ish years later (today actually) I ask well are we pretty certain that I still have Fibromyalsia? And the answer, Yeah we are pretty certain that you have it due to the constant problems you have.

So what is Fibromyalsia? It is a chronic pain disorder that basically means that everyday some part of my body is in pain. It varies in intensity from day to day and also varies on the location of the pain. I honestly can't remember the last time I had an entire day of being pain free. I know there have only been a few over the last ten years. Over the counter meds like Advil or Tylenol don't really do anything to stop the pain, and in order for them to work I have to take a minimum of 6 pills (which I dislike because of the damage that does to your liver) and so most days I try to ignore the pain and focus on other things. Some days it is relatively easy to ignore the pain because either it is minimal or I am so busy I don't have time to think about it. Other days it gets harder.

Well today we decided to try two new drugs to help with the pain and the sleeplessness due to pain. Get this most drugs that are used to treat Fibromyalsia are not actually for it but usually for diseases like epilepsy, depression, antipsychotics and other fun brain related things. I have run the gambit on the meds to treat it and today I can add two more to the list an antidepressant and an antipsychotic medicine. Joy! There is only one medicine that the FDA has approved for the treatment of Fibromyalsia and my insurance company has it in it's "head" that it is not a real problem and therefore will not pay for the approved medicine. Oh well lets hope that these two new drugs will give me some relief. But just in case I start puffing out my cheeks, biting air, or have other involuntary muscle spasms call my doctor because it is a bad side effect from the anti-psychotic. No wonder mental patients look crazy they are on medicines that make them involuntarily jumpy and weird.

Bad Habits -- You'd think by now I would learn what not to do!

Ok I have this bad habit of hurting the ones I love by saying mean things to them when I am upset. I did something I should not have done (snoop through letters & notes that were not mine to look at) then I got super upset over what was in them and proceeded to bite the head off of the person they were addressed to. I know it is stupid for me to get pissed off when I am reading things I am not supposed to because hell if I was supposed to read them then more than likely I would not be pissed off at what they said. Ok so that does not justify my actions I do understand that. But I think I shoved my foot deep down my throat with the things I said to the person the letters/notes were addressed to... to the point where basically I got told to "go to hell and we never have to talk again"... since I obviously think little of the relationship between me and the addressee. Wait though that is not the case... I got upset because of the relationship we had and the things in the letters/notes seemed to contradict that majorly!

I don't know what I am supposed to do! While I am really upset (fighting back tears all day long over the hurt feelings) I don't want to ruin the relationship/friendship with the addressee. But I think I seriously injured it and they are not even upset that I read the letters/notes! Just a what came out of my mouth when I was upset about them. One of these days I will learn tact - my dad tried to beat it into me with a belt all the time growing up and some days I think I have it down. But when it comes to my friends I so often say things that hurt them and I understand this obsession with hurting those I love only because I feel comfortable enough to really tell them what I think/say.

And I had been doing so good with ignoring annoying things (flirting /little girly girls) with this person because it was not my place to have an opinion on what they do with their free time. But this was just too much and so I gave up my resolution of trying to play everything off as a joke (because it is always easier to laugh at yourself then really tell people how you feel) and laid it all out there. I am really scared that I messed up more than I have ever done in my life - and trust me I have done some stupid shit when it comes to relationships in my life! I am not sure how this relationship can go on from here without being seriously injured or guarded for a long time. I don't want to lose this relationship/friendship at all and it kills me to think that I probably have. But the worst part is the go to hell part was said because I mentioned money... not because of the mean things I said about the things in the letters but over money! To lose a friendship over something so so so stupid is ridiculous!

I am hurting pretty bad right now. I have been crying all day long and I am really scared. This person means so much to me and if I lost them... well then I have lost everything that means anything to me in this life. Honestly it would make a few bad decisions very easy to make if I lost this person in my life. And it scares me that I am even thinking things like that... because it would be enough to make those decisions for me and make it easy to follow through.

I won! I won! I won!

One of the local radio stations was having this giveaway where they are giving 20 prize packages away. The prize... a day-trip to the Kansas City Area to go gambling with a friend which includes the bus ride, some spending money and dinner. While they are there they will also be giving away other prizes. Well I signed up because my great grandma loves - obsessed loves - to go gambling and I have not had alot of extra money plus a trip where I don't have to drive why not? Well.... I WON!!!!! I have not called her yet but I will on my lunch break... she will be so excited! Now the only problem will be getting her up and around and to the pickup point for the bus by 7:30 in the morning.



My boss is great... originally I was supposed to work a financial aid event this sunday because Newman is the site host. But she was really understanding about it. In all honesty I would not have signed up if I had known the trip was for the Sunday... but I am now glad I did! Now I just hope the bad weather is gone before Sunday or otherwise it will be a long drive sitting next to my worrying Mimi Doll!

Guess it is a good thing that I got my KS refund back already cause I don't have alot of $ right now due to endless Doctor bills! So I am really excited!!!

Snow day and volunteer stuff = I have been busy

Ok so yestersay I woke up at 4 in the morning with a Veggie Tales Silly Song stuck in my head... mind you I don't have children it's not like it was something I had hear recently. But it would not shut off so I could not get back to bed. Oh and yesterday it snowed and my work closed (best kind of phone call to get at 6 in the morning - then a call from my mom at 6:20 - then a call from mil at 6:30) so I spent the afternoon working on cards! I got about 40 done. Some of them have metalic embelishments on them. Well I drove to Home Depot and got a huge bunch of the Ralph Loren (sp?) metalic paint chip samples then ran them through my cuttlebug (wonderful christmas present from little brother) an it worked perfectly... see now I have even more of a reason to go to the hardware store to stock up on my free supplies! So if any of you visit home depot snag a couple for me! You might just get a pretty card out of the deal!

Oh and today I used my grommet kit to help make financial aid banners for work. My boss was so impressed with my talent... not sure how hard it is to hit something with a hammer but hey if she thinks it's talent I will take it!

Plus I have been working on cordinating a volunteer event for the women at my work (faculty staff and students) the Habitat for Humanity is having a Women Build project and so far I have over 30 people signed up! I am so excited to have such a great turnout. My work gives us 40 hours of paid volunteer time so I think I may spend an entire week helping to build the house. Plus since I am a team cordinator I have to volunteer if I have others signed up so I guess it is great I have the 40 hours. Oh and (I know just so many fun things) I am starting up for our schools Charity Silent Auction. This year we are raising money for the American Cancer Society and The Free Wheelchair Mission. It was started by an alum of Newman University (where I work and am an alum twice over) and if you are interested in learning more you can visit here: http://www.freewheelchairmission.org/. It seems like a really worthwhile cause so I am excited to get started on that. As soon as the date is ok'ed by the higher ups then I get to start soliciting donations... that is always the fun part. No I take it back when the donations start to come in that is the fun part... kinda like christmas even though I can't keep any of them.

Everyone have a wonderful weekend.

Taxes..Check. Baby Brother's 21st B-Day... Sad Check.

Well I just did my taxes... I thought it would be a little worse this year cause Tyler did not want to file together, thought we were getting screwed on the refund. Well it turns out I was getting screwed out of my refund because his old boss took no where near the amount taxes that he should have. Poor Tyler ended up owing about $350 while I am getting a $1000+ refund. Go me! So mine are all done and he has to recheck his and figure out how he wants to go about paying them. But the refund I get is just going to pay down a credit card... sadly it has gotten way way way out of control with doctors visits and medicine every few days. So even with the huge help it will still be sky high. Oh well.

Well the time is finally here... my baby brother turns 21 on Saturday. Can't be 21 cause I still remember beating up on him... now he stands over a foot taller than me... whats up with that? He is having a big 21st b-day bash... should be fun to go to. I felt obligated to invite Tyler so he can just suck it up if he goes cause I want to have a good time with or without him. This will be my first "party" I have ever been too... that is so pathetic I know. My little brother sure learned how to have more fun than I ever did.

Well just a short post for now... off to await the up to 6" of snow we are supposed to get tonight and tomorrow. Maybe I will be lucky and I will get a text on my cell phone in the morning saying that the school has closed due to inclement weather... hey a girl can dream right?

What did I do over the weekend?

Ok so I look back at my to-do list and lets see I did 3 1/2 of the things on the list. Ok so I was not as productive as I wanted to be but thats ok.

Sunday I went to breakfast with Tim. Some place down town called the Beacon. I had no clue it even existed... but obviously I was the only one cause it was crowded and we even ran into some of his friends. It is a good home cooking mom & pop kinda place. Got biscuits and gravy with country fried potatoes. Ok I guess I have just had Denny's country fried potatoes but these were different they had peppers and onions in them. They gave the potatoes a really good flavor but I picked around them... just not a huge pepper and onion bitter taste fan. Sorry. After that we hung out at his place reading the newspaper (I know so exciting) then we went to pick up his boss's grandson to take him to see Cloverfield.

Both before and after Niles (the kid) had us playing Halo 3. Wait I take that back I was playing be a target and they were playing Halo 3. The best I did was when Tim and Niles were in another room and I was shooting at their characters. But I had alot of fun playing it with them... I used to play Halo with my husband and his brother when they both lived with their parents... I actually go ok at it then at least I was a more interesting target then I was Sunday! Might have to dust off the xbox while Tyler is at work and get some skillz! Yeah ok I said skillz I am an old fogy now I guess. It was neat I have never seen how xbox live works and I was impressed. It was kinda funny cause some friend of Niles was on talking to him. When you have a chat link open the other persons voice comes out over the tv. Well this kid was singing to himself and we could hear it! Me and Tim were making faces at each other about ready to laugh cause it was hilarious... some little tune like "Mich---ael, Mi------chael." No clue who Michael is but he sure liked him. Niles is a real cute kid... but I am worried aobut him... he had Texas Chainsaw Massacre toys, and well I know what those did to my husband, I saw them when we first walked downstairs and Tim noticed them later and just gave me the big eyebrow lift like uh-oh. I just told Niles that those toys were neat just to make sure that he doesn't go overboard on them he will be fine. I know he was probably like --- ok crazy lady.

Cloverfield: Well lets see it is shot kinda as a first person film. Your supposed to believe that this guy who was filming a going away party is with it enough as a giant monster is attacking the city to keep the camera going because "People will want to know how it all went down". So if you are motion-sick inclined probably not your movie. Very jumpy and sometimes understand because they did a great job of making the whole handheld video camera thing believable. But overall the movie was just --- ehh take it or leave it. I don't know I guess I like movies that explain a lot. This movie starts at the party and then it goes to the end where it just cuts off. It's obvious what happened but I guess I just expected more. They never explained what the frick the monster was --- kinda looked like a bat with giant legs and a octopus tentacle tail. Then it dropped little monsters off of them that looked more like the spiders from the Harry Potter movie. One of their friends gets bit by the little creatures and for some reason she exploded? Did not see if it was because it laid eggs in her or what. It was really short only 1 hour 30 minutes... so it would be a good Palace aka cheap theater or a rental movie.

Yup that was my weekend. Oh Sunday night I ate Taco Bueno.... I don't think I will be eating there anytime soon. This is gross and tmi: but I was up until 3 am and Taco Bueno was exploding out of me at both ends. My wonderful oh so sweet and such an ass husband only said these two things to me. "That's gross" and "Don't break the toilet". Isn't that sweet of him?

It's Friday!

It's time to celebrate we'll have a good time! Ok so I really don't have any major fun plans for this weekend but I don't really care I can lounge around and veg out all weekend long. I might even be lazy and never get out of my pj's... who says you need to look good to go into public? Besides the look good part I never have down anyways so I don't think the pjs are going to ruin my image.

Here is my exciting weekend plans:
1) Go renew my Sam's Club membership --- I think my puppies will want food after tonight. Geez they are so demanding! Oh and I need more laundry detergent, got to smell good well that's not true cause I get the All Free & Clear kind that doesn't smell so I guess I have to settle with knowing that clothes are just clean. Plus I have to take one of the cars to get the tires rotated, Tyler tried but the membership expired so I needed to renew it before they would let us play spin the tires.

2) Circle of Friends Crop --- a group of us from work are going to be scrapbooking this weekend from 1-5 on Saturday. Will probably work on Tim's car album just to get it finished up. More thank likely I will be lazy and just do a bunch of cards to stockpile.

3) Get some stronger hair spike stuff --- got a haircut Wednesday night and wow it is short! Like the top of my head is like an inch... so I need to play around and see if I can make it work. I will have to try to take a picture to post so everyone can see how short it is now. I kinda look like I stuck my finger in a light socket!

4) Make more cookies --- this is about the only way (other than crying uncontrollably for hours) that I can make myself feel better. Luckily I don't have to eat them all to feel better either, just baking them does it.

5) This is really sad - don't laugh - put up my Christmas Tree --- yes I am super lazy and have not gotten my Christmas Tree put up yet. Just never feel like messing with it.

6) Finish up the tile in the bathroom --- only like 5 more tiles to lay but I am lazy and they require cutting so I have put it off.

7) Oh I am going to make t-shirts for the gals in the office to help celebrate Financial Aid Awareness Month! Really hope they turn out good cause I doubt I can find $2 t-shirts again for a while.

Yes, yes you now know where to hang out to take paparazzi pictures of me! I know my derriere will bring in big bucks from all the tabloids! Come on my hair is practically shaved off and well ok so that is the only thing like Britney that I have in common - thank goodness!

Well... So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, goodbye. Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye! Don't panic it is ok if the Sound of Music songs are popping into your head! Here's another --- Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens. Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens. Brown paper packages tied up with strings. These are a few of my favorite things.

Lazy Lazy Lazy

Ok so I have been really lazy and not posted anything lately. Why you ask... cause I just have not wanted to look at a computer anymore than I had too.

So what all have I done since I last posted? Well I graduated (at suma cum laude) and celebrated that. Um it was Christmas so I drove all around town, not sure how relaxing that was but it was nice to see all the family. I put new tile in my bathroom - although I have not completely finished that project because of some well bad thoughts that I was thinking while doing it. Oh and I started baking again!

Over the weekend I baked lots of muffins and 4 cookies short of 24 dozen cookies! Why? No reason really baking just makes me happy and so when I do it I really do it! I made some oatmeal dark chocolate chip cookies for Tim (best friend) and then I made alot of cookies that had both white chocolate chips and peanut butter chips in them. Once some of them are gone I am going to try creating my own recipes... thinking white chocolate chip macadamia nut peanut butter cookies and I also want to try making banana nut chocolate chip oatmeal cookies. Oh and I was thinking maybe cranberry white chocolate chip macadamia nut oatmeal cookies. Not sure how they will work out... any taste testers out there? Oh well I know that if they are really bad my dogs are more than happy to eat any mistakes and if they only have white chocolate in them then they can eat them.

Well I don't have alot else to say... going to try to keep up with this more now that I am at work and forced to sit in front of a computer all day long.